After a quick view a couple of kitten on my honey's FB, I felt a lil released. I got a heavy headache and abdomen swelling since last nite due to allergic symptoms of smell I can't cope with. To be specific, the smell of 'minyak angin' ('vapour rub's and the worst is 'minyak cap kapak'.) I don't know from where the air bring the odor into my room. I too, had an allergic reactions to some of the specified odors and fragrances which I can not clearly explain the right causes here. I use the term allergic because I don't know what other term to use. Cigarettes smokes for instance; I can't breath smoothly where I used to hold my breath when I was in the same lift of a person/s who had just smoked. The smell always hits me really hard as I was having cough when I just passed by..Sometimes, I became just a wilt-like veg when I smell the heated seat or plastic in the car. When it happened, I turned to pale, decrease/slowly the way of air to breath in and out into my chest, I can not even speak clearly, feeling dizzy and ended with vomiting so badly. What I could say is like a pregnant woman having morning sickness..sigh~
Not to mention here, I obviously severe a motion sickness with above mentioned symptoms which I believe these two are connected to each other and something things that I could not explain have not functionally in the rite way or less effective in my body. The only cure for me is to smell a fresh orange peel or lemon or at least a lime and sit under a high speed of fan before try to take a long and a deep sleep. That is the only cure that works for me so far..sigh~~
Eh..wat pe cite pasal sakit2 neh....tak bagus..!!Stop it Wanna. You're killing yourself while no one mind about it at all..huhu~
Lets talk about the kittens I mentioned at the very first line up there. I felt the headache in my head flowed bit by bit, away through my hand to the finger, up to the air as I imagine the softness of the kitten's fur on my cheeks smothered all the pain away. Just after a few minutes staring the pic of them. Several years back in 1995, when I was 10, I hate cat really much (not really hate, it just that I feel not safe) because the scratch of its claw left a deep wound on my first time playing on the ground with my grandfather's cat, Puteh. Ever since, I scared of cats, not to play with them or I even won't touch them wherever how cute or beautiful are they. I just worried they would give me another shoot, and I feel hurt again..(plus, the cats at my home had once vomited with worms, too many tiny worms, a needle size and I had to clear all them away--me; phobia to caterpillar as well, and all its kind including rubbish worm, leeches, and some nematodes..yukkkk!susc a nightmare to me..;-()
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| Don't hurt me anymore, will ya? Please baby..it's hurt so damn.... |
Until I met someone, who is now became my honey. He loved cat so much. I realized he such a gentle towards cat when he set up my lappy with a photo of cat as my profile picture. Day after day, his care on this animal became real on my eyes, showing a paternity of its nature, same like my father was. I started to play with cat, just to feel how good to have a human-animal relationship between these two creatures. I try to bring out my gut of cat, not to feel they will harm me anymore..slowly perhaps, with an imaginary support of trying to adapt with my honey's liking. Till the minutes I've written here, I still be aware of cats' claws eventho I could sit side by side and play with them. I imagined they are immediately changed their claws into these whenever I jumped into them..everywhere , always like THESE...
or like THIS.....hahahahaha..so cute, isn't???
I could feel the warm relationship with cat now..the reason why people love cat and own them as friend. They are really soft..soft and warm as human's care..huhu..
P/s::I wonder where my pain has gone. Is the cat bring away my pain or somehow 'the man' who owns the cat..ohhhh...confused~~lalalala..
