I Got Fooled..grrrr~~

A new update lately..I must say it is a great achievement of myself when I can hold cats~even I kissed and hugged them..owh~ 

If you read my really earlier entry, that was my past traumatic experience with a cat when I was like 10 years old. It's been really a long time since then, I now live together with three cats, owned by a house-mate of mine. They are John (Male), the eldest and the biggest one, very active and protective, Tam (Male), the middle sibling, known by its silky and black coat with stockings on the toes, and the very youngest and smallest amongst, Noni (Female).

They are not a good breed as I can see. Mixed breeding maybe. My house-mate adopted them by the roadside during the sundown of one day. It's been two months they are here and I can not wait to hug them everyday. They catch my eyes recently and I do not know why. Perhaps, this is the feeling that cat lovers experiencing on their relationship together. What can I share is, I start to love them but since they are my house mate's, I do not play them as mine which is too soft in a way. She trained them to be active playing around with toys but somehow, they became so soft with me. You are too adore kids, on my lap..

The funny things happened when my house-mate is not home. Twice! She left the kids with me, on the time was busy checking go og le map on my lappy. I did not notice that the house become so quiet without any sound until I started worry where they had been. All this while, my house-mate and I keep eyeing on them to ensure they do not jump out the verandah, as my house located on the first floor. Like a panic mom in the house, I was searching and calling them all over the corners but I did not found them. Even no sound answering my calling. I wanted to phone my housemate to get home fast but suddenly John appeared in front of me. Without any seconds, I asked John (see, I can speak to cat..huhu. Another achievement!), where are the others. He slowly brought me to the freezer and I could hear something making sound right behind the freezer. Here were they, hiding there in the air chamber. I was so worried of the electricity or whatsoever lined there and I tried to hold them out. I knew they won't come to me, so I made a trick to make them go out by making sound of playing their toys. Finally..fuhh. They were safe.

The same night, for the second time, they kept silent. My worried feeling raised up. I called them, play the toys but they did not show up. Guess what, they were resting happily under my bed. I should put the signage, if only they can read. No cats in my room. Sorry kids, that the rule even you guys like to sit there. I do not like mess there. The door will always tightly close.

I got fooled by the cats..uh uh. Nevermind. I love you kids!

Tam. He always staring at me when I speak. Weird uh??I don't mind.

John. Once, I photo him smiled to me. So calm.

Noni? uh uh..the baby rabbit from farm near my house. Be my pet, please..hu hu~ adorable sangat kan??~

I inspired by our beloved Prophet Muhammad (pbuh). His love was not only to humankind but also to animal. Read the incredible story HERE 

Now, it's time to the end..

It's time to say good bye..

Really, huh? Yes..that is my answer to say good bye to the jumbled year of 2011. Without noticing, 2012 is just coming in, nearly left me out in less than a month. And I believed, 2011 would be another year in memory of my past life journey as too many things up and down in my life.

Not forgone, Muharram, it's already brushed up just few days back, a good starting point for Muslim to end the Hijri calender and to set new hopes and plans. I am hoping for wonderful new year 1433H to come and I pray for everyone too:)

Well, speaking of the whole year journey, that's a lots to say. Be it sad, good or new experiences, I welcomed all of them. I made mistakes. Surely everyone did! Either it verbal forms or physical forms, most of it give me lessons in forms of life journey, which I ask a lot more in near future. From those lessons, I knew that I learned straight away things that should be facing. First and foremost, I hope to be a very humble women whoever I am to be, especially to the Most Merciful, Allah the Almighty who gave me strengths and guidances all this while facing mementos in my life journey. Secondly, easy but thought aim, to become more matured women, especially in terms of making decisions. The third, the aimed is to be a very wonderful women to the nearly year approach, most of time dedicated to myself, to dearly family, to loved ones, and to everyone who resides by my side.

Things to leave still..

Too many, I must say..but I never regretted to every single thing I'm on. I made the decision all by myself, no one to be blamed at. I on the blame if I wanted point my finger to. I adore my own way of rational thinking, so it's totally me. As who knows me, I always leave things that I do not like to be in..none of my business~ it do look not good, but it keeps me away from something mess. You know when to be part or not to be part. I called it choices. 

Things to boost out more..

Again, too many..I welcomed everything to come to my life..It's part of life journey set for us, aren't they?Some of them are fated, I must accept it the whole hug. There must be something Allah want me to know, then He sent them to me. Accept them with whole-hearty are the best. He know what is best for me..and to you too.

Wishlist??

My only wishlist for the year of 2011 was to get better job. For people who know my life, it seems not easy..However, I did it after a lot of phewww. But, I forgot to ask more. It just a job I asked, not career..and I am still struggling for it. 

For year 2012..there are a lot. I put them on my blog wall if you want to know. Neither first of last items would come first. All are count together.:-) and I will add some more from time to time.

Nothing more I would ask except happiness and wonderful journey of life. May Allah give forgiveness on my wrongdoings and give bless.

Welcome 2012

A year of spending and making decision.

Crying..The Best Medicine.

I rarely cry..<--itu adalah tipu.. The truth was, I always cry..like now. I felt so lonely. There is a gap. A chamber mybe. A hole sometimes. It's empty. At the bottom of my heart. That's the reason I'm crying. Sometimes, I felt myself down to the the ground, at the very earth beneath my feet. Always, I have to fill it up, every time. To remind myself to be stronger. Not physically, but mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I bring myself to pray. Put the doa along. Never give up to Him. The Only One who listen and give.

Sometimes, I really need someone's shoulder to cry on. I don't know who. The one who will not laugh at me when I am emotionally week. A comfort feeling I crave for. I never had one. Though friends are around. They never get me cry on them. I always get back to myself, crying alone..and to Him. 

'Meski ku rapuh dalam langkah

Kadang tak setia kepadaMu

Namun cinta dalam jiwa

Hanyalah padamu

Maafkan bila hati

Tak sempurna mencintaiMu

Dalam dada ku harap hanya

Dirimu yang bertakhta'

~forgive me Ya Allah~

I start having signs and bad feelings..Is my instict right?

Ya Allah..help me on this..There are lots of signs..Have I been cheated?(T_T)

Baking..Always My Passion..

It's quite a long time I did not post any entry on my blog wall. I wish I could stay persistent to write for at least a post for every week , but times and ideas are sometimes seems to be running away from me. I got lots of fun ideas at the edge of my finger coming along everyday, but what happened to myself, I just got stucked when my very small fingers touched the keyboard. I was like just clueless, staring thoroughly the blank sheet without any single movement of my hand. Oh sweety, it's your blog, anything from the least to the huge thingy you can stick on it. No one care what is in your head except they are really care about yourself..sometimes I do care about what people think of myself. Be it positive or negative thoughts, they were always counted in. Right seconds after I think about it, then I will get rid of it.

Orait, I 'll write. My hobby. Simple. This is my real hobby and I am crazy about it. Though I have no background in professional baking or cooking, the art of cooking is what I always wanted to do. Be mindless if I am too darn adore about certains recipes that are available online, because it is way easy for me to go-ogle on the net to gain the best recipes online where I can compare and play with the flavor and varieties. However, I love to compile few of them and try-mix ingredient between different recipes. So, I know which recipe works well.

These are some of recipes I tried. Before we may get started with my highest ranking dessert and ccokies, I should mention here that I always try to bake cookies and desserts in stead of meal. I found they are easy to play with and there are many way of doing them either to decorate them or to blend all the ingredients all together. The results are still the same and I had fun every time I bake!

These are some of recipes I tried and has become my favorite all the time~most of them are western origin. I love them because they are healthy and less sweet in flavor..

1. Florentines

This is easy to make. It tastes sweet, chewy and sticky cookies. Made of mix nuts such as almonds and groundnuts, mix with dried cherries and raisins and coated with chocolate at the top or bottom. There a lots of recipes online but this, i always use the same recipe as this from Homemademummy and you can access the recipe here.

 2. Biscotti

I just love this. I first tasted it at Gloria Jeans Coffee outlet along with a cup of coffee. The taste was great and it was a great combination when you dip the log with the coffee. This is where I found this great recipe; Pastrypal and the recipe is here.

 3. Panna Cotta

The recipe is from the great chef David Lebovits. So, you want to make panna cotta from his recipe, click here.

4. Rocky Road

 

Picture origin from Myrecipe.com. You may get the recipe here.

Here is one of famous Australian dessert time. It was rock everywhere. The taste is sweet, a combination of fluffy marshmallow and chocolate. This is the perfect dessert for picnic or even on your movie time. I really enjoy it when while reading book. Its gone just few pages I read. Oh my~Sorted, the cooking crews I always wanted to join them in the house. Reach the other recipe here. It's live!

5. S'mores

Marshmallow again. Imagine the fluffy marshmallow with dark chocolate blend with the biscuits. I just could not wait. Let's eat them here from Sweet Savory Life.

6. Caramel Pudding

 

The recipe from From Taiping to Kota Kinabalu. Get the recipe here. yummy!

And there are lot more of my favorites as listed here:

7.   Cotton Soft Japanese Cheese Cake

8.   Almond Crispy Jelly

9.   Heavy Cheese Cake

10. Lady Fingers Tiramisu

11. Doughnut

12. Macaroon

So, wanna try one of these recipe? Let me now and I will direct you to the real recipes from the best cook..Bubye~

The Little Sweetheart..Come here to me...

After a quick view a couple of kitten on my honey's FB, I felt a lil released. I got a heavy headache and abdomen swelling since last nite due to allergic symptoms of smell I can't cope with. To be specific, the smell of 'minyak angin' ('vapour rub's and the worst is 'minyak cap kapak'.) I don't know from where the air bring the odor into my room. I too, had an allergic reactions to some of the specified odors and fragrances which I can not clearly explain the right causes here. I use the term allergic because I don't know what other term to use. Cigarettes smokes for instance; I can't breath smoothly where I used to hold my breath when I was in the same lift of a person/s who had just smoked. The smell always hits me really hard as I was having cough when I just passed by..Sometimes, I became just a wilt-like veg when I smell the heated seat or plastic in the car. When it happened, I turned to pale, decrease/slowly the way of air to breath in and out into my chest, I can not even speak clearly, feeling dizzy and ended with vomiting so badly. What I could say is like a pregnant woman having morning sickness..sigh~

Not to mention here, I obviously severe a motion sickness with above mentioned symptoms which I believe these two are connected to each other and something things that I could not explain have not functionally in the rite way or less effective in my body. The only cure for me is to smell a fresh orange peel or lemon or at least a lime and sit under a high speed of fan before try to take a long and a deep sleep. That is the only cure that works for me so far..sigh~~

Eh..wat pe cite pasal sakit2 neh....tak bagus..!!Stop it Wanna. You're killing yourself while no one mind about it at all..huhu~

Lets talk about the kittens I mentioned at the very first line up there. I felt the headache in my head flowed bit by bit, away through my hand to the finger, up to the air as I imagine the softness of the kitten's fur on my cheeks smothered all the pain away.  Just after a few minutes staring the pic of them. Several years back in 1995, when I was 10, I hate cat really much (not really hate, it just that I feel not safe) because the scratch of its claw left a deep wound on my first time playing on the ground with my grandfather's cat, Puteh. Ever since, I scared of cats, not to play with them or I even won't touch them wherever how cute or beautiful are they. I just worried they would give me another shoot, and I feel hurt again..(plus, the cats at my home had once vomited with worms, too many tiny worms, a needle size and I had to clear all them away--me; phobia to caterpillar as well, and all its kind including rubbish worm, leeches, and some nematodes..yukkkk!susc a nightmare to me..;-()

Don't hurt me anymore, will ya? Please baby..it's hurt so damn....

Until I met someone, who is now became my honey. He loved cat so much. I realized he such a gentle towards cat when he set up my lappy with a photo of cat as my profile picture. Day after day, his care on this animal became real on my eyes, showing a paternity of its nature, same like my father was. I started to play with cat, just to feel how good to have a human-animal relationship between these two creatures. I try to bring out  my gut of cat, not to feel they will harm me anymore..slowly perhaps, with an imaginary support of trying to adapt with my honey's liking. Till the minutes I've written here, I still be aware of cats' claws eventho I could sit side by side and play with them. I imagined they are immediately changed their claws into these whenever I jumped into them..everywhere , always like THESE...

                                       

                                            or like THIS.....hahahahaha..so cute, isn't???

I could feel the warm relationship with cat now..the reason why people love cat and own them as friend. They are really soft..soft and warm as human's care..huhu..

P/s::I wonder where my pain has gone. Is the cat bring away my pain or somehow 'the man' who owns the cat..ohhhh...confused~~lalalala..

A Introduction to My Blog

Hi everyone..this is my first time writing something on my wall. Nothing much interesting to talk about my blog at the moment. As a newbie, I felt blogging is just one of the way to entertain myself rather than spending on  something else like shopping where the money and time are wasted. It just that I want to create a space for myself crapping and bubbling about things I loved plus sharing something that you might have not known before..

Well, let me first start with a brief introduction of my blog. I named it Autumn Dreams. I created it just for fun, the place where I can paste my feeling at, to share the best moments I experienced before, to let everyone knows deeply a kind of person am I, and of course to share something precious in a form of  life experiences. Here, I won't tell you the details of my personal, just knowing my nicknames are enough, I suppose.

Why Autumn Dreams? Hah! You might be wondering why it has been chosen. There are lots of reasons why I chose such that name. Firstly, it was because I found a perfect match for my blog design. The colour, design and the space just suited me! I liked the design so much. Enough said:)

Secondly, it was about the name itself. I put my life targets to be completed each year. Those targets are secrets ya! Ask me whenever you feel like knowing:).Offline! I called my targets as dreams. The  dreams were actually begun when it was autumn. To be exact during fall in Australia. Yes, I spent my first autumn overseas in Australia and since then, I sequenced almost every single one of my dreams. It wasn't mean that I had not thought about dreams before, it just that I can perfectly focus on how to achieve them now. In other word, I can manage my life and became mature. Just after the autumn started..

Thirdly, it all started when I created a blog of mine-->online e-boutique (you can access it here Sakura Hijab e-Boutique). I started to love on blog writing soon after I launch the boutique. I came across to glorious and happening blogs while blog-walking <---my previous activity before blogging..hehehe. It gave me ideas and passions of how interesting the blogging was. I had to admit it! It was fun!

Other than that, I just wanna to practice my skills on english writing, so that my left brain is always working best and I can spend my spare time doing something.

I hope you enjoy my blog. Have fun reading :)

P/s: Share yours!